Y is everyone so happy?y is everyone going thru so much happiness and all i gt is sorrows and tears...every other day tears jus roll down mi cheeks bt i had to wipe them off and pretend as though nth had jus happened...no one noes how i feel unless they are mi...probably cos i dun tell anyone anything tat happened to mi...sometimes i wished i had someone to tok to...sometimes i would jus prefer to be left alone...thus mi nt telling anyone anything...bt everytm i stop to ponder y can't i lead a happy life like everyone else...try living in mi house for a day and u would noe wad it feels like to be somewhere so jus nt home...i look forward to leaving mi house every morning to go to sch...to c everyone...bt i dread going hm everyday to c mi mum...i dun wan to c her at all...nt because i dislike her face bt because i dun wan to fight with her...everytm we c each other we fight...we fight over the slightest things or rather for everything...everything tat happens in the house mus go according to her wish or else WW3 will jus begin...seriously i m tired...tired of all these fights tat go nowhere and last forever...Mothers are supposed to be somone u confide in bt in mi case i would be the happiest if she would jus leave mi alone for an hour...i pray for things to be better bt things jus gt worse...mi financial problems are jus piling up and i seriously duno wad to do...nt getting allowance for days is like pretty norm for mi already...now i m jus happy wif mi daily dosage of green tea in the morn...tat would keep mi up and about for quite some tm...sometimes i wonder how mi lil sis is ever going to survive in tis family...somehow mi and mi sis managed to cm tis far tolerating everything tat happened...sometimes i duno whether having another sibling is a gd thing or otherwise...mi dad said tat i would love to c her cos babies are jus so innocent looking tat they bring joy to everyone...i guess i kind of agree with him bt still i long for real happiness...somehow i m sick of always trying to act happy when i m actually nt...bt i guess i will still have to do it for the benefit of everyone...

**Tis post is very random...somehow jus after reading some blogs i realised tat everyone is so happy thus tis...am i jealous of ppl's happiness?Well i guess i jus long to have one like them... ...