Has things really changed?
y can't they be like they used to...
i knew it tis will happen...

Went to gt April darling's bdae gift today...Wee =)) gt her sth real nice and i hope she would like it...met sarah and was late due to the tok tat the dumb sch had on Blood Donation...seriously i dun mind donating blood to save lives bt the tot of how thick the needle is jus scares mi off...jus by looking at the videos tat show ppl donating blood mi automatic reaction is to close mi eyes and look away =.=

While walking along with sarah dear today we were jus toking bout the silly things we used to do in the past...thinking of it jus makes mi wan to laf out real loud bt when we were doing it den it was all fun and nth seems wrong with it at all...=] These are the list of things tat we used to do together...Sarah mi and April or commonly known as A.S.S =Pp

1*Buy cup noodles frm the shop near april's place and go over her place eat the cup noodles and to watch vcds [*sometimes sven to Karaoke*]
2*Go to the 7-11 near sch jus to eat cup noodles and drink Big gulp due to nt wanting to eat the boring sch food
3*Eating cup noodles under the block nt oni tat sitting on the ground with countless ppl staring at u wondering wad the heck are u trying to do
4*Going North point every other day like as though tat was our second hm [*i dun understand y we jus dun gt sick and tired of it*]

And the list of stupid things we do jus go on and on...looking bk at it i really Miss those days when things are jus so carefree and stress-less...though at those points we used to think tat al the sch work is killing us bt wad bout now...the amount of stress we have due to work is piling up and the amount of problems we have are like countless...before u can solve one problem another jus comes along...Tis is the way of LIFE =x

Gtg sleep now...
Good nite everyone =))

are u feeling wad im feeling??
i wanna noe...

i yearn to see the stars twinkling in the night sky...
i wanna go star gazing again...
*very random =p*

ur smiles are awesome =))

Y is everyone so happy?y is everyone going thru so much happiness and all i gt is sorrows and tears...every other day tears jus roll down mi cheeks bt i had to wipe them off and pretend as though nth had jus happened...no one noes how i feel unless they are mi...probably cos i dun tell anyone anything tat happened to mi...sometimes i wished i had someone to tok to...sometimes i would jus prefer to be left alone...thus mi nt telling anyone anything...bt everytm i stop to ponder y can't i lead a happy life like everyone else...try living in mi house for a day and u would noe wad it feels like to be somewhere so jus nt home...i look forward to leaving mi house every morning to go to sch...to c everyone...bt i dread going hm everyday to c mi mum...i dun wan to c her at all...nt because i dislike her face bt because i dun wan to fight with her...everytm we c each other we fight...we fight over the slightest things or rather for everything...everything tat happens in the house mus go according to her wish or else WW3 will jus begin...seriously i m tired...tired of all these fights tat go nowhere and last forever...Mothers are supposed to be somone u confide in bt in mi case i would be the happiest if she would jus leave mi alone for an hour...i pray for things to be better bt things jus gt worse...mi financial problems are jus piling up and i seriously duno wad to do...nt getting allowance for days is like pretty norm for mi already...now i m jus happy wif mi daily dosage of green tea in the morn...tat would keep mi up and about for quite some tm...sometimes i wonder how mi lil sis is ever going to survive in tis family...somehow mi and mi sis managed to cm tis far tolerating everything tat happened...sometimes i duno whether having another sibling is a gd thing or otherwise...mi dad said tat i would love to c her cos babies are jus so innocent looking tat they bring joy to everyone...i guess i kind of agree with him bt still i long for real happiness...somehow i m sick of always trying to act happy when i m actually nt...bt i guess i will still have to do it for the benefit of everyone...

**Tis post is very random...somehow jus after reading some blogs i realised tat everyone is so happy thus tis...am i jealous of ppl's happiness?Well i guess i jus long to have one like them... ...

It's been like a week since i last blog...well loads have happened...sch has started and im beginning to feel the stress...so much hw so lil tm to finish it...really in a rush for tm...wel jus hope things gt better after awhile =))

And mornings gets sweeter day by day =)))

Went shopping at IKEA yest to shope for things to decorate the Band room...the whole room look so dull now tat its so boring in there...so we decided to lighten up the place...and guess wad wil happen when u bring teenagers hu are like kids to ikea...they pick things tat wil turn the whole band room into a mini kids room =Pp The things we pick are so colourful tat it wil jus turn the whoel room into a mini playhouse...so thankfully with Ms Luo there the band room is somewhat saved...=Pp But we had really loads of fun there...finding the things we need...and it was all done with the help of everyone hu went...thanks =)) Ate lunch at Delifrance...goodness it was damn ex bt we had Ms Luo to treat us...thanks a million we enjoyed it =)) We promise tat the band room wil be done up real nice =] Hmm and i think the snakey is nice to cuddle...LOL guanz wil deffinitely agree with mi rite? =]]

It's 5 more mins to 12 which means tat it is 5 more mins to someone's 18th birthday so here it goes...
Happy 18th Birthday Tianyu =))
May all ur wishes cm true and do well for ur exams ok?Study hard Jia you =] No matter wad happens u noe u can always count on mi though i laf a lot la bt stil in a way it did made u feel better rite??Wahaha anyway enjoy ur day and God bless =))

your smiles are wad kept mi going each day...
promise nvr to stop smiling...