"What you want may not be suitable for you...
But yet again what you want and is suitable for you may not want you..."

Tis sure does sound chim and nt comprehendable to some...bt if u look at it carefully and try to decipher the meaning to it...it actually makes sense...=] It hurts to hear the truth sometimes bt whether one like it or nt one has to face up to reality and take it...Everyone fears rejection and nvr wans to face it at all...bt somehow or the other one has to face it in their course of life...The oni thing tat differentiates these rejection is the way one reacts to it and live each day upon hearing it...some may not be able to take it a resort to "stupid"measures (or at least i think its quite stupid) such as self mutilation tat gets u nowhere...all u gt is pain and more pain...and i dun c y one deserve so much amount of pain for loving wrongly...like emotional pain is nt enough for one to take...personally i had experiences with ppl around mi self mutilatng themselves and all i c after these attempts is scars and more scars...does tis equal to satisfaction and ridding one of pain?Wel til today i can nvr really relate to tat bt stil i jus strongly discourage anyone to do tat expecially those close to mi...i feel sad enough when i c u emotionally hurt...i dun wan to c u physically hurt as well...To mi its nvr worth it to go to tis kind of desperate measures jus for losing in love...its jus nt worth it...i noe its hard for one to gt ut of it and pick oneself up again...bt yet again it has to be done and it can be done if oni one is willing to move on and nt dwell on it anymore...dwelling more on it wil jus make matters worse and one aint going to get any better...
So pick yourself up and move on alrite...i noe it aint easy...bt u have to be strong and there is always bound to be tis special someone out there for you...its jus a matter of tm before u find tis special someone...it wont take too long turst mi =))

ur smile...
mi happiness...=)

Happy birthday Fidelia =)))
Love you loads mi dear laughing machine and i can't say how much i miss those times we use to spend together...bt nevertheless we shal stil go out yea and du so stress out everytm...SMILE more often nia i miss it =Pp All the best and God Bless =))
I seriously think i am going into depression mode la...first quarrel with mi mum...den i had to lose the necklace she bot mi for mi bdae...damn...how could i have jus lose it man...i wasnt as lucky as sarah dear to have found her ring bk...apparently the ppl living at her block are blind bt the ppl living at mi block have sharp eyes...i didnt think much of it tis morn as i was rushing to sch...i felt tat i dropped sth bt when i check i saw nth so i jus went to sch...bt damn i really lost it...gosh how am i ever going to ans mi mum if she asks mi bout it...Argh i m so screwed la...wel shit happens and none of the ppl around mi are having smooth lives at the moment...wel all i can pray for is for these to nt last forever and be gone soon =))
Had dinner with Ty today and guess wad he really made mi laf after all the tears tat i cried the day b4...bt really i enjoyed the dinner we had i guess tat was the only tm u didnt scold mi...wahaha anyway i really hope u felt better yea...
*Jus wan u to noe tat no matter wad u do and no matter how much i wil say tat u are stupid u noe tat u stil have mi by ur side to support u yea...u noe tat when u need someone to tok to i wil be there =))

smile ever so sweetly...

When wil you ever stop blaming mi for getting retained?
When wil u every gt it tat its nt tat bad after all?
When wil u every understand tat ppl living in the house needs to eat and needs money?*and tat includes you*
When wil you every stop scolding and hitting mi for everything tat i have done?
When wil you ever start appreciating everything tat i have done instead of scolding mi for wad i haven?
Does anyone even noe how to ans thses qns?
Wel i guess no one does and no one wil ever be able to...
I guess i m jus dumb and its all mi fault tat certain things happen...
No one else to blame apart from myself...
Gt it in ur brain sarala tat u are stupid and can nvr do anything right...

Tears in my eyes...
wipe it?